Looking forward

I think I can safely say that the last quarter of 2007 has been one of the most challenging season of our family life. Caring for Caitlyn in her first 6 months proves to be real challenge without any help from family (thank God for mom for being here for an entire month in July!) and me managing a project that has all the recipe of a typical Malaysia SAP project (except maybe user's commitment) nearly drove us up the wall.

Ministry life has also not been too encouraging as nearly everything that I put my hands on did not flourish. God's voice seems vague most of the time and as we struggle to pull through that season, I find myself mostly lost in my own spiritual direction. At times, I've contemplated to move back to Malaysia where things seems to be more in order, help easily available and my place in the ministry is more defined.

Somehow, I still sense that God is saying 'not time yet son, be patient and continue to be faithful'. It brings me back to the time when Jesus was at Gethsemane. Doing what is of God must supersede what we feel. I can come up with multiple excuses, more than justifiable with a young family and a demanding career but it's still just excuses. And I know that I am in no position to say that I don't have time when I've been discipled by this man before and encouraged by this article.

These two men are my heroes of faith, living a life full of purpose Honoring God, Advancing His Kingdom and Establishing His House. I'm determined to go down on my knees and seek God's face in the coming 3 days of fasting and prayer but I'm pretty sure God's purpose for us, no matter where we are is still to Honor Him, Advance His Kingdom and Establish His house.